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I am posting this on every blog I have because sometimes I like to synchronize.
 

100 days project

I was very blocked earlier this year.  Then I caught an epiphany it was inspired by the critics of President Obama.  They were either applauding or complaining about his 100 days accomplishment since becoming President.  I won’t comment on that since the country and government is too complicated, there are no easy answers for that.  We as a people have to understand that. 

So while listening on the radio, the announcer asked the audience, "What have you done in 100 days?"   I had no grand answer for him.  So I looked at a calendar and determined from May 4th to Aug. 3rd are 100 days.  I was going to accomplish something, Create, Improve, Achieve.  I felt like Tony Robbins, I felt extra positive.    I made a list of things I wanted to work on and attempted to work on them.  

1. I started to walk as an exercise to loose weight.  I also looked into joining a gym.

2. I entered a Nurses’ Assistant program, to get a steady paying job.

3. I also rewrote a chapter of a story I am working on and completed a chapter to my satisfaction.    

4. I attended church more this year than I did last year. 

It all started well.  But some where during the middle of my hundred days I fell lethargic.  I got tired and stuck.  I didn’t know how to get myself out of it.   I just knew I felt like crap and I didn’t like it but I couldn’t find my way out.    I lost track of my hundred days project.    Thinking about it made me fell like a failure again.  I had this idea that if the hundred days worked for me,  I good get other people to join the circle and help themselves.    I know a lot of people that really really really hate their positions in life and I thought this grass-root support group could help.  
 I thought that if I accomplished the things on my list.  I could say see look at this, look at me, if lazy me can do this you can too.  But three weeks to end of my days and I feel like I didn’t do as much as I should.  I feel like I lost.  Howver I will not give up. Simply because I had another epiphany, thanks to the Obamas again and Sesame Street.  
I don’t talk about her much on this site.  But I have a daughter and I don’t want her to see me giving up.  I have given her some really bad habits.  I took a test, I am 77% lazy.  That doesn’t bode well for my future.  If I continue with that percentage.  I want my kid to have the life I didn’t have.  The better life.  The life she likes more than lives with because there is no better alternative.   So giving up is not an option. 

Do I call this suffering? 

 

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