I don’t know why I bother.
I move like a chicken w/o a head. No direction just the impulse to keep
going and I am getting sick of it. I started my next 100 days project 2 and I
know I am seriously failing. I feel like
a sinking ship and I don’t know how to stop myself from going under.
One of my main goals of this
100-days was to loose weight. It is day
29 and I feel like I have gained. I have
not done much to change my eating or added exercise into my routine. I don’t even know where activities like that
can fit in my filled but boring life. I
want to scream frustration but I don’t know where to start and I doubt it will
help. To tell the truth I am tired of
doing this on my many many blogs. But I
have no where else and no one else, I have only been telling halves of the
story anyway because I don’t want to deal with the drama of full
disclosure. But sometimes I hate the
person I have become and I hate the people I know. Our actions are appalling and we refuse to
take the blame for the wrongs we have done.
I don’t know if this blog makes sense or not but I just wanted to type
my feelings about what is happening to me.
I can’t make this insightful, eloquent or inspirational because I don’t
feel like that and I haven’t felt like that is a long time. I want to curse but I am training myself not
to, I am not always successful. But I am working on it.
My title might be confusing but
it is what it is as written. Windows
live only requires a title and I don’t have one off the top of my head. I usually do even when I go off topic. But this was the freeist write I have done is
a while. I think I am feeling
better. Just a little bit.