Monthly Archives: September 2009

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I don’t know why I bother. 
I move like a chicken w/o a head.  No direction just the impulse to keep
going and I am getting sick of it. I started my next 100 days project 2 and I
know I am seriously failing.  I feel like
a sinking ship and I don’t know how to stop myself from going under. 

One of my main goals of this
100-days was to loose weight.  It is day
29 and I feel like I have gained.  I have
not done much to change my eating or added exercise into my routine.  I don’t even know where activities like that
can fit in my filled but boring life.  I
want to scream frustration but I don’t know where to start and I doubt it will
help.  To tell the truth I am tired of
doing this on my many many blogs.  But I
have no where else and no one else, I have only been telling halves of the
story anyway because I don’t want to deal with the drama of full
disclosure.  But sometimes I hate the
person I have become and I hate the people I know.   Our actions are appalling and we refuse to
take the blame for the wrongs we have done.  
I don’t know if this blog makes sense or not but I just wanted to type
my feelings about what is happening to me. 
I can’t make this insightful, eloquent or inspirational because I don’t
feel like that and I haven’t felt like that is a long time.   I want to curse but I am training myself not
to, I am not always successful. But I am working on it. 

My title might be confusing but
it is what it is as written.  Windows
live only requires a title and I don’t have one off the top of my head.  I usually do even when I go off topic.  But this was the freeist write I have done is
a while.  I think I am feeling
better.  Just a little bit.

EndRed lips