Lightly soured grapes

I remember a couple of years ago, I heard Stephanie Meyer say  out of her own mouth in a recording that she had finished the first book of her twilight series, the namesake twilight in a month. At the time, I was on a library waiting list for the book and was interested in it from all the internet buzz it got. I had been struggling with a  novel project for years, ekeing out a page or two between mind numbing, body defeating  day jobs. Then there was the time I didn’t have a job, cash flow was in the gutter and inspiration to write followed it.

When I heard what SM had said about her book, a feeling came over me that is hard to explain to anyone.  I don’t know where it came from, there were a whole lot of writers I envied but I hated SM’s whole writing career. I may or may not have mentioned it before. I was really angry at her and myself. I banned the kid from reading the series. ( She defied me on the down low and then told on herself. I forgave her eventually and understood the popularity of the books made her do it. Peer-pressure is worse than a bitch.) I took my name off the list. To this day I have not read the series. I watched the movie and felt justified with my hate. I haven’t read a book by SM and I don’t plan to watch the movie from her other book. My grapes are that sour.

Anyway. If anyone reading this is wondering the point, here it is. I like the artist Chris McGrath’s work, he does the book covers for the Dresden Files. He does book covers for other authors as well.  I find them interesting and entertaining enough to find the book that goes with the picture.  That is how I found it. Max Gladstone’s Three Parts Dead. It was brand spanking new book and I didn’t have the cash for it but I had the 1 credit needed to get the audiobook free. So that is what I did.  I listened to the story and liked it enough to randomly search for book two.  Recently I came upon MG’s blogs and felt lightly soured grapes.  MG writes about writing second book and other stuff  I am sure.  I just don’t have it in me to read now.  I will probably buy MG’s second book, mostly as an audio if available.  I am hooked on the series.  I don’t know if he intended the main character to look or be african-american but that is how I see her  and well I like it too much to turn away.  I think the main character of Three Parts Dead is rare.  It may not be for the genre but for me to find it oh yeah.

I am jealous and envious of writers having the time and energy to write and writing about it.  I have ideas bursting out of me and I want to work but I also need money.  I have a kid, quality of life is important.  I also have a sick mom and my time is being swallowed by that as well.  I want to end this blog optimistically but I don’t think I can.  Endings are another problem for me.  I can never find them in my stories and I never do them right in my blogs.  FYI this is the longest post I have done in while.  I hope it made sense.  It did in my head.



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