Bad habits are rising their ugly heads again. I find myself at a lost in all the things again. There are things I want to do, the things I need to do and the things I can do. It changes daily. Like I had no real plan or idea of what to write here. Now I have a flow of words I think will be interesting to someone else. Sadly it has been four weeks or more since my last post. I haven’t been consistent. I wanted to be but life and laziness got in my way. I also lost the inspiration to write free or structured it was completely sucked out of me. So what have I been doing cooking, cleaning, dishes. Conditioning myself to throw things away. I won’t call myself a hoarder but I think I am getting close. The cure for that is garbage bags and Good Will. Some time ago I promised to post my fiction. I self sabotage, it is a flaw I noticed a while back, I am working on fixing it. G.I. Joe always said knowing was half the battle. I know I get nervous and I get scared that I will never be the writer I dream about. The fixing of the things I want to change is slow. So readers, if I have any bear with me.